Behind the Songs
Background on the inspiration for each song from the music CD Nothing Will I Withhold...,
by Kathi Wilson
Mighty Rushing Breath of God
“When the day of Pentecost had come, they were all together in one place. And suddenly there came from heaven a noise like a violent rushing wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting.” (Acts 2:1-2 NAS95)
“‘Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know.’” (Jeremiah 33:3 NAS95)
At a conference, I had the privilege of sitting under the teaching of Dutch Sheets, who literally inspired two of the songs on this CD. He proclaimed that “the Jeremiah 33:3 Revolution” had begun and described “strategic times of the blowing of the breath of God again intensely” on us, hence, “Mighty Rushing Breath of God” was born! I long to see Him blow over this nation and I personally desire to see the “great and mighty things” that I have not yet seen or known.
Nothing Too Difficult
“"Is anything too difficult for the Lord? At the appointed time I will return to you, at this time next year, and Sarah will have a son."” (Genesis 18:14 NAS95)
“"Thus says the Lord of hosts, ‘If it is too difficult in the sight of the remnant of this people in those days, will it also be too difficult in My sight?’ declares the Lord of hosts.” (Zechariah 8:6 NAS95)
Upon hearing the news that a dear friend of mine was in a coma and might possibly never regain consciousness due to brain damage, I was completely devastated. I ended up on my living room floor crying out to God for her healing. As the words of this song gently drifted into my mind in response to my cries, I found my way to my piano. Over the course of two years, I watched the Lord miraculously restore my friend, and this song is a testimony of His utter faithfulness.
“Then a fugitive came and told Abram the Hebrew. Now he was living by the oaks of Mamre the Amorite, brother of Eshcol and brother of Aner, and these were allies with Abram.” (Genesis 14:13 NAS95)
“for we walk by faith, not by sight—” (2 Corinthians 5:7 NAS95)
This was the other song that was born out of the teaching of Dutch Sheets. He was sharing that Abraham was referred to as “the Hebrew” long before the Israelites were called the Hebrews. The original rendering of the word “Hebrew” is “a crossing over one”. Likewise, each one of us is called to be willing to cross over into the places we cannot yet see – to walk by faith and not by sight. If there is a threshold before you, my prayer is that this song will give you the courage to cross over it!
I Will Tremble
“"For My hand made all these things, thus all these things came into being," declares the Lord. "But to this one I will look, to him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My word.” (Isaiah 66:2 NAS95)
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; a good understanding have all those who do His commandments; His praise endures forever.” (Psalms 111:10 NAS95)
I love the Prophets! Isaiah 66:2 declares “to this one I will look, to him who is humble and contrite of spirit, and who trembles at My Word.” One of the things the Church in America is often lacking is the fear of the Lord. We’ve grown accustomed to hearing Scripture and perhaps even a little too comfortable in His holy presence – that the idea of trembling at His Word almost seems unnecessarily formal. If “the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge”, I am convinced that we need the Holy Spirit to teach us to tremble!
Fill My Cup
“For you have died and your life is hidden with Christ in God.” (Colossians 3:3 NAS95)
“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You have anointed my head with oil; my cup overflows.” (Psalms 23:5 NAS95)
One of the greatest influences in my life has been Beth Moore. Her life-filled teaching and ravenous hunger for His Word literally birthed a jealous desire in my heart to never be satisfied with anything less in myself. I can’t recall which Bible Study it was from, but she was discussing the importance of going to God to have our cups filled; that we should not look to our mates or our children, our jobs or our ministries to “fill our cup”; but to Him alone. It is not always easy to see when we’re looking to other people or other things to give us value or to make us feel good about ourselves, but it certainly is not difficult to recognize how contrary it would be to Scripture to find our identity in anything or anyone other than Jesus. Our life is hidden with Christ in God. This song was formed out of a desire to be extremely intentional in my pursuit of God and to only look to Him as I continue my journey to spiritual maturity.
These Are The Tears
“"Return and say to Hezekiah the leader of My people, ‘Thus says the Lord, the God of your father David, "I have heard your prayer, I have seen your tears; behold, I will heal you. On the third day you shall go up to the house of the Lord.” (2 Kings 20:5 NAS95)
“You have taken account of my wanderings; put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book? Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call; this I know, that God is for me.” (Psalms 56:8-9 NAS95)
After a particularly difficult day I found myself crying myself to sleep. Early the next morning, I awoke to the words of this song drifting through my mind. Like salve brings healing to a wound, the words sunk deeply into my hurts of the day before. That the Creator of the universe takes notice of my tears and sees them as important enough to keep, persuades me that this God I serve loves me perfectly.
My Heart Overflows
“For my heart overflows with a good theme; I address my verses to the King; my tongue is the pen of a ready writer... Then the King will desire your beauty. Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him.” (Psalms 45:1,11 NAS95)
“And the four living creatures, each one of them having six wings, are full of eyes around and within; and day and night they do not cease to say, "Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God, the Almighty who was and who is and who is to come." And when the living creatures give glory and honor and thanks to Him who sits on the throne, to Him who lives forever and ever, the twenty-four elders will fall down before Him who sits on the throne, and will worship Him who lives forever and ever, and will cast their crowns before the throne, saying, "Worthy are You, our Lord and our God, to receive glory and honor and power; for You created all things, and because of Your will they existed, and were created."” (Revelation 4:8-11 NAS95)
What does worship look like? Describing the experience of coming into God’s holy presence is a daunting task. After reading Psalm 45, I found myself at my piano echoing some of the very same ideas. The image of bowing before Him with a heart full of worship came easily, but I soon discovered that my ability to describe the overflow of my heart was much more challenging. My soul is indeed quieted before my King and my lips can genuinely proclaim, “Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord!”
I Am Undone
“As the deer pants for the water brooks, so my soul pants for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God; …Deep calls to deep at the sound of Your waterfalls; all Your breakers and Your waves have rolled over me.”
(Psalms 42:1-7 NAS95)
“Would not God find this out? For He knows the secrets of the heart.” (Psalms 44:21 NAS95)
“Then I said, "Woe is me, for I am ruined! Because I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts."” (Isaiah 6:5 NAS95)
“"Cease striving and know that I am God…” (Psalms 46:10 NAS95)
'As The Deer' was one of the songs I cut my teeth on and I remember well the first time I heard an explanation of how the songwriter came to the place of composing this classic scripture song. He had been writing worship music for a living and had basically found himself in a spiritual desert place. Just as the heavy rains come on the heels of the dry season, times I have been most crushed by the ferocious waves of His love have been after a lonely season in the wilderness. Taken by surprise, I am suddenly immersed in His presence and completely “undone”. I remember crumbling on my piano after writing this song, being still, knowing that He is indeed, God.
Nothing Will I Withhold
“"May he kiss me with the kisses of his mouth! For your love is better than wine. Your oils have a pleasing fragrance, Your name is like purified oil; therefore the maidens love you. Draw me after you and let us run together! The king has brought me into his chambers. We will rejoice in you and be glad; we will extol your love more than wine. Rightly do they love you."” (Song of Solomon 1:2-4 NAS95)
“Now it came about on the third day that Esther put on her royal robes and stood in the inner court of the king’s palace in front of the king’s rooms, and the king was sitting on his royal throne in the throne room, opposite the entrance to the palace. When the king saw Esther the queen standing in the court, she obtained favor in his sight; and the king extended to Esther the golden scepter which was in his hand. So Esther came near and touched the top of the scepter.” (Esther 5:1-2 NAS95)
This song is the celebration of a season spent in the Song of Solomon. I was well aware that I had been rescued by grace and washed in His blood, but I did not comprehend how unrelenting His love for me actually was. Meditating on this book allowed me to grasp the concept of being His Bride and took me beyond the outer courts and into the Holy of Holies. Drawn into His chambers, I discovered that there was nothing I needed to hide to retain His love and affection. With time I became more and more convinced that I would gain nothing by withholding myself from Him. I am persuaded. I am loved.
Beautiful Glad Tidings
“How will they preach unless they are sent? Just as it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news of good things!"” (Romans 10:15 NAS95)
“I will rejoice greatly in the Lord, my soul will exult in my God; for He has clothed me with garments of salvation, He has wrapped me with a robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.” (Isaiah 61:10 NAS95)
The story of this song is so fun! My husband, Mark, was led to Christ after graduating by the parents of one of his high school buddies. Bill and Bobbie Couch faithfully kept in touch over the years and when it came time for them to celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary, we were invited to attend. The day before we were scheduled to travel to Texas, I was compelled to sit down at the piano. As I searched the Scriptures for words to frame my thanks, this joyful song was brought forth. I had been scheduled to be in the recording studio that evening and while there I asked if the engineer would let me just lay down this song so I could give it to this dear couple for an anniversary gift. Shocked that it took only one run through, I found myself utterly amazed by God’s grace. At the close of the wonderful evening of celebrating their anniversary with family and friends, I had the unique privilege of playing this song for them as a tribute of their faithfulness in preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ. May others be inspired and encouraged to be faithful to do the same!